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Sunday, June 12, 2011

Ayuni! ;')

Hey there, cantik. :)

I don't care how much you HATE me right now, its just.. Uhm, let me say something out here for you, aight?
Prefer to say this today, hope you cool down sikit walaupun BANCI brabis like brabisly! x'D
And me buat ni since you really mean for what have you said tu. ;')

Remember at first? Before tani kenal? Heh, poke poke ye? :P
And that time luckily jua me pakai DP bini2 ah? Mun laki2 payah dikit kana balas! Haha. x'D
Then, comes to wall. Right, masa kenal tu i kinda like you, the way you text lagi macam oh you make me feel better, senyum2 jualah ulehnya.. Menjangkit sampai ke whatsapp ey? Hehe.
Kan gitau feeling tu, takut eh, sama2tah lagi pemalu! Payah ni payah! ;')

I've told you at the first place I need time kan? Yeah, its about my ex coz i am trying to forget about her. Yourself tau kan its really hard to forget someone that we love? So, yeah.
And at the same time i want to know more about you, like maybe for couple weeks or more? But then we cant wait,

I just go with the flow since you makes me feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel happy! :')

Mmmmkay, awal2 tu I feel like.. Me sayang kan you lah, ada jua rasa jealous tu, remember? Bestfriend konon~ Haha.
Nadalah, jk.
And of course, me sayangkan you jua but maybe not as much as you love me awal2 we've been together tu.
Day by day with you tu, me makin sayangkan you lah. Macam, entah makin sayang lah makin makin. Apakan. :P

Oh no, awal2 tu pun ada klaie lah ah, sorry jua pasal tu. Me macam inda care ah, I don't know why. Hati me macam batu, macam urang nada perasaan an? Sorry, tapi kan.. I really feel jealous lapas tu, macam entah lah. Sasak ah haha, me sayangkan you wah, tau? Tapi kana banci udah ni, miana ni ah? x'D
Hehehe, its okay lah. Im fine with it, its my fault pun. And I just want to express my feeling here so you know you're not stupid k? Stop saying you're stupid and honestly I'm not fooling you around selama ani.

That time jua we keep knowing each other, cali jua, sad jua, sasak jua, ada jua yang marah sampai off hp ey. :P
Hehe, sorry lah. Past is past, whatever lah pasal tu I don't really care sudah after we argued tu I still accept for who you are, okay? Walaupun me ni, apa nya.. PEMILIH! x'D
Tapi, me banar banar ah masa tu. Nada main main, mun kan main main di arcade mall sana, k? :'P

There you go, text text text nah nah last2 our first date! 21st May, 2011. <3
That time, inda jua sangka kan ke JP kan liat band lah tu, Dinshe. HEHE, inda jua jauh ah dari bandar ke sana, urang sini jauh. :P
Oh sweet, ada lagu intro tani datang! HEHE <3
Wuish, that is my first time acting cematu, hahaha! I'm not buat2, its me. Entah lah, kalau me control handsome ah time atu gerenti 'WORST FIRST DATE EVER' kali di buat nya arah buku tu. Ehem, inda sampai hajat kan liat buku damit tu ah? :'P
Its okay. Hehe.
Well, it was a wonderful night. I'd a lotsa fun with you, and and and siapa suruh nyaya arah text. Hehe, I hope you have fun jua malam tu even you malu2 sampai tunduk2. Me datang, you tunduk liat hp memanjang, nasib jua inda salah urang. Mun salah, abis eh kana ampas pakai kuda tu. :P
Me datang you tunduk2 lagi, jalan2 tu adalah sikit, and time me makan, adey! Esen tia main hp, haha esen tia lowbatt. :P
Nadalah, i trust you a lot. Yknow.. I think its my best date ever jua, I never been ketawa2, nyaya2 cematu before. ;p
I still keep your necklace tu and I don't know what I'm gonna do with it. Maybe keep it as my memories saja, aight?

Second time, we have a date d Mall tu, not bad tho. Actually nya its great but Mall tu yang buat buring kan? :P
Hehe, at least dapat jua jumpa and lapas jua rindu tu an? Tapi lapas jumpa rindu balik! Phews. I do miss you jua.
Actually nya you kan dangar me menyayi that time, haha malu me banar. Bukan malu apa, ada urang wah. Mcm luan sikit urang di sana iatah. :P Tidur di Rimba just want to see you. Hehe, even that time you inda dapat jalan don't feel guilty lah dear, okay? At least you did your best pun. ^^
Lagipun that time me stress pasal lain, hehe.

Uhm, I dont know how much you really care for me but what I can feel is I am being fully love by this girl, Ayuni. Eh apakan? :P
Yeah, me tau you takut losing me and how much you takut that I change. But i try my best to not, but maybe yes I've changed?
Yeah, that time I hurt you jua because I can't promise you if Im going to change or not. Me pun inda dapat tantu kan atu, apa macam you cakap, people change lah itu lah ini lah. :P but its true. :S

You did a lot things to me, just to make me stay the same, feel better, happy and not bored at all.
But me? I seems not really appreciate for what you did. SEE, how bad am I? Its not you, its me!
I am so sorry, and now I really mean this 'SORRY' for the last time I'm here. Lapas ni Im gonna back off because I dont belong to here anymore, kan kan kan? :(
I know apa me buat tu, you can't forgive me. I hope one day, you will. Yeah, hope so..

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HEY KEEP TALKING SHIT OKAY?! IM NOT GOING TO FALL FOR YOU AGAIN,I MEANT
WHAT I SAID TO YOU EARLIER!!! IT SUCKS TO KNOW THE TRUTH!!! AND IT SUCKS TO
FALL FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESNT APPRECIATE ME AT ALL!!
YOU KNOW WHAT? I NEVER THOUGHT THAT THE ONE I REALLY LOVED HURT ME SO BAD! THIS PAIN KEEP TORTURING ME,AND YESSSSS ITS

KILLING ME!!
I NEVER EVER THOUGHT THESE THINGS HAPPENED!

YOU WANT MY FORGIVENESS? FINE,I FORGIVE YOU.
JUST GO AND LEAVE ME ALONE!

I DONT WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN!!! I SWEAR I REALLY HATE YOU!!!
AND THANKS FOR MAKING LIKE THIS,I LOVE THE NEW ME. :)

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As I can see, words tu. Plus words from whatsapp tu, my god.. Maybe yang selama ni you simpan semua melatup hari tu. :'(
You inda pernah marah me sampai cematu an dulu, but now.. Yeah, tkajut me jua, sandi banar. Sandi lah, mcm SANDI. :'P
But here, me inda plg mau kasar2, even you kan reply kasar2 lagi lapas ni pun inda papa. :')
If you want to curse me badly pun, sureeeeeeee. As long as you puas ati, k? :'(
I don't have much idea what to say to you here, but even you banci me as much as you love me dulu tu. Its fine, me rela saja lah since its my own fault jua for hurting you an. I deserved this kana banci2, and as you say Tuhan saja kan balas.
Well, yeah right.. Karma. One day me kan tau cana you rasa. :X
Tapi me pun sayangkan you wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh eh! x'D

Kalau ni lah yang last me buat untuk you, me... Mau you tau, that now... Me sayangkan you banar banar, banar banar ni nada lagi macam Zek Kaching, ani banar banar udah. Yeah, I just realised how much you love me yang selama ni me sia2kan, inda hargai. Yeah, how fool am I? x'D
Entah, now I feel macam I lost something now, sakit rasanya for losing someone yang sayangi tani brabis ni. :')
We promised to be together no matter what happen? But now, me tau you inda dapat tahan lagi with my attitude, inda dapat saba nya urang di sengkuwong tu. Its okay. Me rela saja kana tinggalkan and kana banci tarus! Hehe. x'(
Yeah, jujur me bagitau pasal status tu its just about the past, and me tau i should't do it. Macam kes Zek Kaching ni eh? Hehe nada wah. :(
Me inda bpikir wah, macam nada otak. Kalau dulu memang you cakap, 'Jgn ckp cematu~' but now Im sure you'll say 'MEMANG PUN NADA UTAK!' haha, kan? :'P
Inda papa, hehehe.
Uhm, I seems playing around here but thats me, thats how i feel, just to be honest with you. ^^
Okay lah, me rela saja for this all.
Thanks for everything, now Ayuni.. Me tau cemana you sayang kan me. Thanks, thank you very much. Ada lagi words more than much kah? I would say that. :P
And skali lagi maafkanlah~ eh nyanyi tah plg. I mean~ I mean, once more I am really sorry. :')

Apa maksud you the new me? With words yang kasar2 tu? Please don't be wah. Just be who you are, k? Stay good girl there. Be good~ ;')

Ayuni, do take care always dsana, be good, stay healthy wealthy, maybe you pun inda hingin meliat muka me lagi, kan? :X
Apa lagi batah2 di blog ani, memang you ckp 'MENYAMAK EH!' :'P
Jaga diri, don't hurt yourself mmmkay? Kinda worried plg, but I know you'll say 'WHO CARE!' but yeah, I hope you won't do something stupid dsana. Come on, you just can say to people out there how suck am I.

I hope you find someone better than me who treat you better, who will treat you good, better, who care for you, and will bright your day everyday! And of course I am going to get jealous kalau me tau. Hehe. ;')
Good luck with your life from now on without me. But just remember this one thing, keep it in mind.
I never expect this thing happen jua, macam entahlah banar2 me inda sangka you will leave me. :')
Since you banci me now, its chance for you to delete everything related to me, mmmmkay? ;')
Those thing me buat, the post or whatever lah yang me buat tu. It doesn't mean anything for you anymore~ ;')
And maybe this one jua, just delete it kalau sudah bacaaaaaaaaaa mmmkayy? x'D
Sudah me baca balik apa yang you buat on this blog jua, heheh senyum2 tapi sedihhhhhh laaaaaaaa~ x'(
And all things i got from you will be my memories, i'll keep it with me. Inda me mau or sanggup kan delete. :'(
Me mau you tau yang me inda nyasal for knowing you, even not even 1 month sama2 tu, Im happy for you. ^^
I've got something kan bagi tapi inda sampai hajattttttttt hahah. x'S

Oh ya, before that.. Me masih ingat lagi, you said you hate all of your ex so don't be one of em. Damn it, I FAIL. :'(
Sorry dearrrrrrrrr. x'(
Im not good enough for you, right? T_T
If me macam bibun apa di atas tu annoyed you sorry.
Doesn't mean I am feeling happy now.
Yknow, i feel like.. ENTAH, SOMETHING CAN'T BE EXPLAIN BUT IT HURTS TOO, AND IM SORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRYY! :'(
Love you. You you you.

I love you always, I never forget how you care, love, treated me so much. I'll never forget about everything we've been through together tu, hehe. Especially part2 yang sweet~! Eseh. ;") Lalalavs you~! <3
And remember, I NEVER EVER WILL HATE YOU EVEN HOW BAD YOU TREAT ME TADI.
Thanks again. ;")

Anddddddddddddddddd I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSING YOU NOW SO BAD~ ANDDDDDDDDDDD IM GONNAAAAAAAAAAAAAA MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOU LIKE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL MORE SOOOOOOOOON~! x'( INDA ME SANGKA I TREAT THE ONE WHO LOVE ME BRABIS BRABISAN MACAM APA, AND I HURT YOU SO BAD!!! :'((( SORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY BRABISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! :'(((((((((
Rindu me kan your smile tu, tawa2 lagi brabis! Cute! Heheh, everybody deserved a second chance? Tapi this time me tau its TOO LATE.

So, i guess thats all~ You don't need me no more aight. As you said 'FUCK OFF' yeah right Im not gonna bother your life anymore. ;')

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If fate says we are meant to be together, we'll meet again one day~ ;')

Goodbye, ayang ayang ku~ ;') <3
Lotsa love from meh!

-NSR.

This one is for you~ hehe. Tata, WhiteClover, Ayuniku~





This is what i want to tell you that time. :s
Then now its different. I dont know what else can i say, its just i dont want to hurt you anymore.
Im so sorry for everything. :')
I dont know where are you now, you removed me everywhere and fb pun nada maybe you blocked me sudah. Its okay.
Uhm, i dont mean to do this to you. Entahlah. :(
Do take care jua d sana aight.. ;')
And i did read your previous post jua..

for the last time.. i just want to say the words yg makes u so special. "Yayang" it means " You Are mY Another half aNd you are my everythinG"

Thanks, thanks for everything ayuni. :') <3

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